My Son's Infactuation with My Feet
My son Jake has been attracted to my feet since he was very young--maybe 2 or 3 years old. I am a single mom who works hard at a factory job to make ends meet for myself and Jake. I am not married. Who'd want me at 5'2" tall and 165 lbs? Anyway, I writing this with the hope someone can help me understand my situation with Jake. Please comment on this bulletin board if you have any ideas. I am going to be very honest because that is the only way someone can give me good advice.
Jake was born with a mild disability mentally. He is not retarded by any means, but it takes him a while to adapt to new things and people. He went to school through his sophomore year. He simply could not handle the mistreatment by the other children anymore. It was fine with me that he dropped out of school. That was almost 30 years ago. He is now 45 yrs old and still lives with me. I hate to admit it but I will turn 65 in a week.
Jake has always been overweight. I guess he takes after me. This was a reason for the other kids to tease him...calling him Chubby Boy.
So here Jake's attraction to my feet, and what things have been like for years. Jake played with my feet as a young boy. He felt secure when he was close to me. I sensed he needed a connection to me physically and allowed him to play with my feet. He liked it when I tickled him with my feet. I tickled his tummy and rubs. He laughed. It made him happy. Then he started sniffing my feet. This went on for a long time. He especially liked my feet when they were very smelly and dirty. I have never taken care of my feet or any part of my body I must admit. My toenails were always chipped, and they still are today.
Jake would get into bed with me and always sleep at the foot of the bed so he could smell and play with my feet. I let him do this until he got too old for that.
As Jake matured he got erections when he'd play and smell my feet on the floor. I noticed him playing with his penis in his pants or PJs when he was about 9 or 10 years old. I worried about this because I didn't want to encourage the wrong things.
I knew Jake was lonely even though he had a couple friends, but that ended as he became more withdrawn and threatened by the other children. Then one day in 7th grade he got caught smelling some girl's gym shoes in the hallway. The principal warned me that he could not do this anymore or he would have to leave the regular school and enter a special education school. Jake was fine for awhile until 8th grade and then he approached an overweight girl he liked named Cindy and he told he that he wanted to smell your feet. She went to her teacher and Jake was forced out of regular school and put into a special ed school, which he hated. This made him even more withdrawn.
He got in trouble in the special ed school many times for stealing girls' shoes and masterbating in them. They let him stay in school but he had to get counseling, which was a waste of time.
Back to my situation. Jake begged and begged me to allow him to get under the kitchen table where he could secretly smell and play with my stinky callused feet. He did not want me to watch him, though I did from time to time. He was masterbating quietly while he fondled my feet. I always knew when he was done because he took out tissues from his pants to clean himself up. I could also smell his semen.
After awhile all this became routine and I didn't pay any attention to any of it. I knew what he needed and let him have it. It was a regular part of our life several times a week.
After he left high school at 15, Jake got a parttime job at a dry cleaners not far from our house. He did backroom cleanup and stuff. He liked the work and money and idolized the woman (Mrs. Tucker) who ran the shop. I figured out he liked her feet too because she told me that Jake would smell her shoes when she kicked them off at work. She never said anything to him but she told me. I shared with her about Jake's attraction to my feet and she cautioned me not to cross the line with him, or go any further than my feet. I observed her confidential advice.
Jake has continued to show attention to my feet over the years, even as a grown man. We were both used to it and we even talked a little bit about it. He said I was his girl and that mommy's feet were the prettiest in the whole world. I laughed and actaully liked the attention.
When Jake was around 17 I started rubbing his penis with the callused dirty soles of my feet while he laid on the floor under the table. It gave him great pleasure and he seemed to relax after he ejaculated. he always liked to smell one foot while the other rubbed him off.
The routine has continued over the years, and even at 45 and 65 we still have this fot relationship. It has never gone any further than that. I won't allow it and Jake is stuck on feet and not other parts of the female anatomy.
I should have written this letter a long time ago. It feels good just getting it off my chest. I hope someone will respond to this. My intentions are good. I am just trying to understand this situation better as Jake and I grow older.